I'm a first time reader of your blog and my heart aches for you. I don't know exactly what you are feeling but I can tell you i want my fucking son back too, the difference is I'm hopefully he'll really come back, you see he's a US Marine and every day I am scared to death that he won't and I get angry that some bastard can take my son at a moments notice and then I don't know what i'll do. So you see, although i'm not in your shoes my heart breaks for you. Get angry girl and don't hold it in, I allow myself one (ok it's usually 2 or 3) breakdowns a day but it's part of healing and hoping. Your family is in my prayers and I hope this new year brings you some peace and love and the pain from losing your precious Michael Francis fades.
The pain of losing a child at any time is so huge, but it seems doubly cruel that you lost Michael just as he was ready to begin his life. I was so sorry to read of your loss, but admiring of how you and your husband handled yourselves and the brief time you had with your son.
I'm sorry we're in this mess. I'm sorry we had to out live out babies. It's not fair. It's not fucking fair.
ReplyDeleteI completely hear ya. <3 It fucking sucks.
ReplyDeleteit's may not be a pretty post, but it sure is a truthful one!!! like angie said "it's not fucking fair". it's not. ((hugs))
ReplyDeleteyeah.
ReplyDeleteLife sucks!! It is not fair!!
ReplyDelete(((Hugs)))
don't the holidays make hard things even harder? i'm so sorry for your loss. hugs.
ReplyDeleteiclw (#100)
I'm so very sorry you are dealing with this loss and the clueless insensitivity of people. It's not fucking fair and I am so, so sorry.
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I'm a first time reader of your blog and my heart aches for you. I don't know exactly what you are feeling but I can tell you i want my fucking son back too, the difference is I'm hopefully he'll really come back, you see he's a US Marine and every day I am scared to death that he won't and I get angry that some bastard can take my son at a moments notice and then I don't know what i'll do. So you see, although i'm not in your shoes my heart breaks for you. Get angry girl and don't hold it in, I allow myself one (ok it's usually 2 or 3) breakdowns a day but it's part of healing and hoping. Your family is in my prayers and I hope this new year brings you some peace and love and the pain from losing your precious Michael Francis fades.
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The pain of losing a child at any time is so huge, but it seems doubly cruel that you lost Michael just as he was ready to begin his life. I was so sorry to read of your loss, but admiring of how you and your husband handled yourselves and the brief time you had with your son.
ReplyDeleteLisa (ICLW 74 - Your Great Life)